What a blessing...

Sometimes I find myself getting frustrated over nothing. I mean its really ridiculous. I stress myself out for things that don't need it. I get very emotional over the smallest things. I get upset, angry, hateful towards people; some that probably deserve it and some that don't.

I reflect a lot. I mean A WHOLE LOT. Its kind of like I act, say or do things without always thinking it through. Most of the time I'm content with the decisions I make and other times, I sit and wonder...hmm was that the right thing? I thought about it and I really question myself way too much. I feel like I apologize so much for the things I feel or have an opinion about. Why is it that I have to feel sorry for that? Sometimes I offend people, but those are not my intentions I just say what I think most of the time either through words, facial expressions or emotion.

There are so many things that I am thankful for though. The Lord has truly blessed me. He is so good to me. He has provided for me the people, the shelter, the opportunities and the materials I need to live a happy life. I know I am going somewhere HUGE. I am going to be the success I dream about everyday with His guidance. Sometimes I find myself just smiling because I really should not complain at all. I have no reason to be upset, angry, frustrated, etc. Not many people know what my plans are, but my ultimate goal is to be financially free and I mean, SOON. Like sooner than most people would think. Why? Of course I want to not have to ever worry about the stability of my family or anyone who needs my help. I want to spend everyday with the ones I love and not be constrained by work or other obligations. I want to go to church every Sunday because I actually have no time commitment to something else. I want to have no excuse not to pray some nights. I want to travel and not just for my own pleasure, but I want to see the world. I have been within these walls of this country for all my life...reading and hearing about the sadness of the world. I want to help. I know I am not a doctor or anything. And sure I can donate a bunch of money and hopefully it gets to some children dying in another part of the world...but I want to actually go and make a REAL difference. God has big plans for me, but not just so I can enjoy them fruitfully and selfishly. I have a real calling. This may sound dumb to you or whatever, but I have a real relationship with the Lord and I know its true. I want a one-to-one interaction with the needy, the helpless, the sick, the dying, the suffering...I want to touch peoples lives.

I want to serve God in the way that he has served me. What a blessing it is to be His child.

"God indeed is my savior; I am confident and unafraid. My strength and my courage is the Lord, and He has been my savior: (Isaiah 12:2 NAB)

Good Stuff Right Here: Unhealthy Friendships.

http://www.life-with-confidence.com/unhealthy-friendships.html

definitely worth taking a reader.

my personal favorite is #7.

:-) *ahhh relief*

A Wish of Success for you

Today you have gone.
Not because you want to leave me here, but because you are out to have set what you have to do, which happens to be far away from here.
I truly believe in you.
I believe in your ambition.
I believe in your dreams.
I believe in you.
I also believe in us.
I believe we can stay strong.
I believe we will keep this love alive.
I believe in your happiness.
I believe that you are happy when you are gaining success and power.
I believe that you are happy when you are with me.
I know we are happy together.
We have made it this far knowing so much about each other.
I can't wait to see you again.
I can't wait to laugh with you again.
I can't wait to cry with you again.
I can't wait for everything to be in its proper place.
I can't wait for our adventures.
I can't wait for us to see each other again.
I wish only the best for you.
I wish the greatest success for you.
I wish the greatest success for me.
I wish the greatest success for the both of us.
I am going to miss you everyday.
I am going to miss your encouragement.
I am going to miss you.
I really do believe in you.
I really do love you.